Former LDS Members Needed for Forgiveness Perspectives Study

Forgiveness Hello, exmo world! I've been officially out of the LDS "church" for 10 years TODAY, and I've been doing a lot of thinking about the topic of forgiveness lately. I am currently writing a book about my experiences within the Mormon religion, as a former pill/ heroin addict, as a survivor of domestic abuse, and the knowledge I have gained both clinically and personally regarding totalistic worldviews. Much of my research as of late is taking me out of the forest of pathology into the raw, open clearings of emotional labor - and as I have been writing more on the subjects of my various healing processes, the pattern of forgiveness emerge over and over. Forgiveness of my abusers, forgiveness of my family, forgiveness of myself, and forgiveness for others still within the "church." Of course, a single perspective does not a proper dissection make. So I ask these questions, for science: How long have you been "out" of the LDS "church," and what does the term "forgiveness" mean to you? If you have been out of the LDS church for longer than 5 years, how do you feel now about the subject of forgiveness VS how you would have felt 5 years ago? How do you think you will feel in 10 years? If you lived within Utah or other Mormon Mecca (such as Rexburg or Buena Vista) and then moved away, how has your view of forgiveness changed, if at all? If you or your children were victims of abuse within the LDS "church," do you believe in forgiveness at all? If you feel like you cannot and will not ever forgive the LDS "church," leaders, or members for any reason after any amount of time, why not? Thank you for any input! Anger is okay, just remember that I am not asking out of defensiveness or judgement; I genuinely want to hear your perspectives, as mine has been largely sheltered from the social detriments of public opinion (I don't live near any Mormons and I have a normal job and normal life on the east coast, so I can just say "Mormonism is a cult" and everyone says "wtf is a Mormon?") Have a wonderful Thursday!